Tuesday, February 11, 2014

AoCC

Hey! Did Tumfs ever write about what might have happened in AoCC? I just finished rereading it and wow it left off at really tense time. I remember reading that she initially intended to have 3 parts to the story, but I’m hazy on any/all details (if there were details)…

This post is where I racked my brain for any details I could recall about AoCC and it’s proposed sequel(s).  It’s not much, so if you can remember anything more or different, let me know.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Epub of the AO3 version of fate is overgrown, TMF’s Keffy fic, with a lot of the errors created by formatting cleaned up: http://www.mediafire.com/?oxx2fjrtnhgdfe2

Monday, November 4, 2013

An open letter to TMF

My name is Lex and I’m an alcoholic.

My low point was considerably higher than most others. I drunk dialed Australia and left a rambling drunken message on the answerphone of my then-girlfriend/common law wife that cost me both money and my decade long relationship. I had beer, lots of beer, and approximately twelve shots of insanely good and expensive whiskey during a whiskey tasting tour. She dropped me via email after we made up and were together for another six months. I’m currently remarried to a woman who completes me in ways that I do not have adequate verbiage to convey, who has helped me through many things I do not have the space to discuss here.

The only reason I’ve not done anything harder than alcohol is because the cost over investment for them is negative, for me. I, essentially, get nothing from them. I currently have a PRN (as needed) prescription for Xanax for completely unrelated and pre-existing PTSD that has been suggested to have been the reason I began drinking (which I would believe had I not begun drinking years prior to the traumatic event.). In the last month, I’ve taken one and a half pills of Xanax - I cut them in half to allow myself a more measured dose on recommendation from my doctor. I know well the emptiness and soothing nature that can come from it, the protective cloud that envelops me and makes the world just a little more okay. I know well the crushing inability to function that comes with anxiety and related disorders. I’ve had Human Resources called on me because my workplace felt I was at risk for opening fire on coworkers when I was having a bad day and just wanted to hide from the world and did not know how to verbalize that desire. I now know to use isolation and medication to curb those meltdowns - I’ve never been a risk for harming others. The paperwork after a massacre is far to cumbersome.

I love beer. I love the taste of beer, I love the warming sensation beer gives me, I adore the way that two beers from the same brewery can have completely different taste profiles. I now, after years of staring at myself in bared honesty and far too many frank discussions about why I felt the need to drink, I am now able to have a beer, or two, or five - decades of drinking have given me a strange tolerance - and decide that no, I am done and would like to go home and have some water, and watch an episode of a good TV show. I used to do some rather more destructive things. I am currently in a good enough place, in a healthy enough place, that I am seriously considering becoming a beer competition judge; akin to a Unix suspendered greybeard, but for beer. The craft beer market can certainly use more, as it can use more cicerones. 

I’m approximately halfway through “these strange steps”, which I located due to a weakness for D/s fic, and for Faberry. The scenes, the emotions, both of the D/s so far, and the addiction…there are not words. I have had tears streaming down my face from the commiseration and flashback, and it’s not bad. I’m able to deal with these emotions and read this story and I’m okay

To say this is a big step would be underselling it. It was a big step when I was able to say “no, I’m going to stay in tonight.” the first time a drinking buddy asked me to DD again. It was a big step when I was able to look at an almost empty bottle and have the unbidden thought that I didn’t have to finish it. I could go to bed, and leave it for another day. It was an amazing day when I went to work and I wasn’t hung over. 

What I am experiencing reading “these strange steps” is nothing like that.

It is catharsis.

Thank you.

I look forward to finding out how Rachel is able to deal with herself when sober and clean, and how she is able to find her way to Quinn again.

Thank you. As an addict. As someone dealing with a lifelong crippling mental disorder. As someone who has had to hide. Something you wrote reached out and touched me in ways illegal in many parts of the world. 

Thank you.

Saturday, September 28, 2013

IBTTRY Music List

Music From “I’ve Been Trying to Reach You” 

CD 1:

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps

Marvin Gaye - Ain’t No Mountain High Enough

Adele - Rolling in the Deep

Etta James - At Last

Jonathan Groff and Lea Michele - Hello

Pretty Girls Make Graves - The Get Away

The Get Up Kids - Shorty

Fiona Apple - Oh Well

Sleater-Kinney - One Beat

The Kills - No Wow (MSTRKRFT remix)

Sonic Youth - Chapel Hill

Fall Out Boy - Tiffany Blews

Hard-Fi - Hard To Beat

The Get Up Kids - Forgive and Forget (Red Letter Day EP version)

Rooney - When Did Your Heart Go Missing?

Glee Cast - Somebody To Love (Bieber)

Jay-Z - My 1st Song

Thrice - Silhouette

Sunny Day Real Estate - Every Shining Time You Arrive

Metric - I.O.U.

Stars - Your Ex-Lover Is Dead

Paramore - Miracle Outro (2010 Live Version)

CD 2:

The Sounds - Tony the Beat

Metric - Glass Ceiling

The Joy Formidable - Austere

Fall Out Boy - w.a.m.s

Nada Surf - Blankest Year

Joy Zipper - 1

Foo Fighters - I’ll Stick Around

Matthew Good Band - Running For Home

Nine Inch Nails - Eraser

Panic! at the Disco - There’s a Good Reason These Tables are Numbered, Honey, You Just Haven’t Figured It Out Yet

Paramore - Pressure

Metric - Collect Call

Jeff Buckley - Lover, You Should Have Come Over

The Ataris - I.O.U. One Galaxy

Girls Aloud - Teenage Dirtbag (Wheatus cover)

Kelly Clarkson - Since U Been Gone

Dashboard Confessional - A Plain Morning

Sleater-Kinney - Oh!

The Get Up Kids - Valentine

Keane - With or Without You

Ellie Goulding - Your Song

Sara Bareilles - Gravity

CD 3:

Interpol - Evil

Cassette Kids - Spin

Phoenix - 1901

The Wombats - Kill the Director

Cold War Kids - Mine is Yours

The Cab - I’ll Run

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps (acoustic/strings version)

Queens of the Stone Age - Go With the Flow

The Cab - Can You Keep a Secret?

REM - Shiny Happy People

Katy Perry - Firework

Weezer and Hayley Williams - Rainbow Connection

The Cab - Another Me

Fall Out Boy - Of All the Gin Joints in All the World

Paramore - All I Wanted

The Killers - Jenny Was a Friend of Mine

Death Cab For Cutie - You Are a Tourist

Letters to Cleo - Fast Way

Sunny Day Real Estate - Disappear

Rilo Kiley - Pictures of Success

Muse - Starlight

Bloc Party - This Modern Love

Monday, March 4, 2013

Eights and Tens blog-only excerpts?

Now that the published full chapters 1-11 are gathered (yay!), does anyone happen to have any of the brief posts that TMF posted on tumblr from future chapters? Especially the body swap episode and part where Claire admits that kissing Nicole in Jackson’s body is way hotter than just kissing Jackson, and that kissing Jackson in Nicole’s body is, like, heaven….

From Seriouslyaskew.


Yes, these.  Does anyone have these?

Monday, February 25, 2013

Sleepy-scarecrow Submitted:

I don’t suppose you have any leads on chapter 10 of Eights and Tens do you? It’s killing my perfectionist side having 1-9 and 11 but not 10.

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Nope. I never have any leads on anything.  Things just appear in my email or inbox, and then I put them in the dropbox.

With that said, I totally understand the annoyance in not having Chapter 10, and I am sure others do too.  Maybe someone in the vast world of the Internet can help us out?

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Rachel’s coming out

Ok, so I’m a little slow on the uptake and never read this before today, but it just occurred to me that the tmf_Drabble4 piece is a prequel drabble on how Rachel came out in TSS. How did I not know this?

Tuesday, December 18, 2012 Monday, December 17, 2012

Music From “I’ve Been Trying to Reach You”

Music From “I’ve Been Trying to Reach You” 

CD 1:

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps

Marvin Gaye - Ain’t No Mountain High Enough

Adele - Rolling in the Deep

Etta James - At Last

Jonathan Groff and Lea Michele - Hello

Pretty Girls Make Graves - The Get Away

The Get Up Kids - Shorty

Fiona Apple - Oh Well

Sleater-Kinney - One Beat

The Kills - No Wow (MSTRKRFT remix)

Sonic Youth - Chapel Hill

Fall Out Boy - Tiffany Blews

Hard-Fi - Hard To Beat

The Get Up Kids - Forgive and Forget (Red Letter Day EP version)

Rooney - When Did Your Heart Go Missing?

Glee Cast - Somebody To Love (Bieber)

Jay-Z - My 1st Song

Thrice - Silhouette

Sunny Day Real Estate - Every Shining Time You Arrive

Metric - I.O.U.

Stars - Your Ex-Lover Is Dead

Paramore - Miracle Outro (2010 Live Version)

CD 2:

The Sounds - Tony the Beat

Metric - Glass Ceiling

The Joy Formidable - Austere

Fall Out Boy - w.a.m.s

Nada Surf - Blankest Year

Joy Zipper - 1

Foo Fighters - I’ll Stick Around

Matthew Good Band - Running For Home

Nine Inch Nails - Eraser

Panic! at the Disco - There’s a Good Reason These Tables are Numbered, Honey, You Just Haven’t Figured It Out Yet

Paramore - Pressure

Metric - Collect Call

Jeff Buckley - Lover, You Should Have Come Over

The Ataris - I.O.U. One Galaxy

Girls Aloud - Teenage Dirtbag (Wheatus cover)

Kelly Clarkson - Since U Been Gone

Dashboard Confessional - A Plain Morning

Sleater-Kinney - Oh!

The Get Up Kids - Valentine

Keane - With or Without You

Ellie Goulding - Your Song

Sara Bareilles - Gravity

CD 3:

Interpol - Evil

Cassette Kids - Spin

Phoenix - 1901

The Wombats - Kill the Director

Cold War Kids - Mine is Yours

The Cab - I’ll Run

Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps (acoustic/strings version)

Queens of the Stone Age - Go With the Flow

The Cab - Can You Keep a Secret?

REM - Shiny Happy People

Katy Perry - Firework

Weezer and Hayley Williams - Rainbow Connection

The Cab - Another Me

Fall Out Boy - Of All the Gin Joints in All the World

Paramore - All I Wanted

The Killers - Jenny Was a Friend of Mine

Death Cab For Cutie - You Are a Tourist

Letters to Cleo - Fast Way

Sunny Day Real Estate - Disappear

Rilo Kiley - Pictures of Success

Muse - Starlight

Bloc Party - This Modern Love

Courtesy of Yoyooduck

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Endlessdreamer13 submitted:

Do you know why TMF doesn’t upload all her fics or does and then later removes them? I really liked the pezberry bet one and that’s gone now and she left ff.net.

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Well, endlessdreamer13, the short answer is no, I don’t know. :/

The long answer, from TMF herself, is here.

I will say, however, that there may be some confusion here.  TMF isn’t currently writing and/or publishing fic (as far as we know), and she hasn’t published anything since….Julyish.

Despite this, while I am not entirely sure which Pezberry fic you are referring to, she left every complete fic on AO3 and most of her incomplete works can be found here, in the Tumfslove dropbox.  Although, perhaps you mean The Mating Game?

If what you are looking for isn’t in the dropbox, feel free to ask again.  People send me different TMF works all the time. :)

Also, hello!