are tmf and sivim27 the same person? because I've seen some stuff about transatlanticism that credits it to sivim27, as well as some other skins fic (either/or, knives don't have your back, fate is overgrown).
You know, I have no idea. I’ve never gotten around to watching Skins, so I don’t know anything about sivim27 or their fic. She could be? Really only someone who followed her from the Skins fandom to the Glee fandom could know…I guess? Can someone clear this up?
Hi, I haven't known Tumfs for a long time but I think she (?) used to published skins fics on fanfiction net. Would you happen to know if there are any other skins fic besides the ones up on AO3? Thanks!
I think she did, yes. However, I never really have been a part of the Skins fandom (mainly because I haven’t had a chance to watch it), so I can’t say for sure because I was never really concerned with those fics. I do remember TMF taking down some Skins fics for very specific reasons when she “left” the Skins fandom, but it’s a very vague memory, so I have assume what’s on AO3 is all the fic that there is. If not, maybe a follower can help you out. :)
re: AoCC -- there was never talk re: legal repercussions for QiF's actions. the fic was looking at the *moral* implications of the deception Quinn committed (with Finn's blessing, initially) -- and on how much intent does, or should, matter in judging whether Quinn's choices were right/wrong. anyway, actual spoilers: [cont]
Shelby & Beth return, causing Rachel to freak out and QiF to click with her in ways Finn could not have; FiQ comes out to Judy, Santana becomes a real friend to Q; post-swap Rachel finally realizes what was going on, punches Quinn, says she never wants to see her again; Quinn either wants to or tries to kill herself again, Sam talks her through it; the end was just flat-out depressing for all parties. (this was all posted in an outline on tumblr at some point btw!)
Fantastic! Thank you for sharing what you remember. :)
I remember that outline and that’s where most of what I remember came from, but, as we can see, I couldn’t remember all of it. Now, if only someone had saved that outline in its entirety….dang.
Hey, I was just browsing around when I found this. Do you guys know anything about her original story that she worked on way back when called Inhibitions? That was really awesome and I hoped she was going to continue but she disappeared so I don't know if that ended too or not. Mostly just curious.
The first chapter is here, but that’s about it. I thought I had more, but I guess not. I hope she continued it, but there’s no way of knowing at this point. :(
Hey! Did Tumfs ever write about what might have happened in AoCC? I just finished rereading it and wow it left off at really tense time. I remember reading that she initially intended to have 3 parts to the story, but I’m hazy on any/all details (if there were details)…
This post is where I racked my brain for any details I could recall about AoCC and it’s proposed sequel(s). It’s not much, so if you can remember anything more or different, let me know.
hello! i was wondering if you or the followers have any idea when "these strange steps" was originally published on FF (or even on tumfs tumblr, since i wasn't aware of the work back then)
Hello! I am going to try to answer your question.
I started following TMF back in late 2011, and she was then in the middle of rewriting And isn’t this exactly where you like me, which would later become These Strange Steps. She published the rewrite as she wrote it, so it started coming to FF in mid to late 2011.
However, if you are asking about its first form, And isn’t this exactly where you like me, I will have to defer to my followers because I wasn’t following TMF at that time.
Hi there! Thank you for putting up tumfs' work! Could you re-upload the link for "tmf: on Quinn & stripping", please?
Well, you are welcome! I sure can fix that link! For some reason the link under the Works section stopped working, but the document was always in the Dropbox. Weird. Anyway, I fixed the page, so you can access it from that link, straight from the Dropbox, or here. Enjoy!
My low point was considerably higher than most others. I drunk dialed Australia and left a rambling drunken message on the answerphone of my then-girlfriend/common law wife that cost me both money and my decade long relationship. I had beer, lots of beer, and approximately twelve shots of insanely good and expensive whiskey during a whiskey tasting tour. She dropped me via email after we made up and were together for another six months. I’m currently remarried to a woman who completes me in ways that I do not have adequate verbiage to convey, who has helped me through many things I do not have the space to discuss here.
The only reason I’ve not done anything harder than alcohol is because the cost over investment for them is negative, for me. I, essentially, get nothing from them. I currently have a PRN (as needed) prescription for Xanax for completely unrelated and pre-existing PTSD that has been suggested to have been the reason I began drinking (which I would believe had I not begun drinking years prior to the traumatic event.). In the last month, I’ve taken one and a half pills of Xanax - I cut them in half to allow myself a more measured dose on recommendation from my doctor. I know well the emptiness and soothing nature that can come from it, the protective cloud that envelops me and makes the world just a little more okay. I know well the crushing inability to function that comes with anxiety and related disorders. I’ve had Human Resources called on me because my workplace felt I was at risk for opening fire on coworkers when I was having a bad day and just wanted to hide from the world and did not know how to verbalize that desire. I now know to use isolation and medication to curb those meltdowns - I’ve never been a risk for harming others. The paperwork after a massacre is far to cumbersome.
I love beer. I love the taste of beer, I love the warming sensation beer gives me, I adore the way that two beers from the same brewery can have completely different taste profiles. I now, after years of staring at myself in bared honesty and far too many frank discussions about why I felt the need to drink, I am now able to have a beer, or two, or five - decades of drinking have given me a strange tolerance - and decide that no, I am done and would like to go home and have some water, and watch an episode of a good TV show. I used to do some rather more destructive things. I am currently in a good enough place, in a healthy enough place, that I am seriously considering becoming a beer competition judge; akin to a Unix suspendered greybeard, but for beer. The craft beer market can certainly use more, as it can use more cicerones.
I’m approximately halfway through “these strange steps”, which I located due to a weakness for D/s fic, and for Faberry. The scenes, the emotions, both of the D/s so far, and the addiction…there are not words. I have had tears streaming down my face from the commiseration and flashback, and it’s not bad. I’m able to deal with these emotions and read this story and I’m okay.
To say this is a big step would be underselling it. It was a big step when I was able to say “no, I’m going to stay in tonight.” the first time a drinking buddy asked me to DD again. It was a big step when I was able to look at an almost empty bottle and have the unbidden thought that I didn’t have to finish it. I could go to bed, and leave it for another day. It was an amazing day when I went to work and I wasn’t hung over.
What I am experiencing reading “these strange steps” is nothing like that.
It is catharsis.
I look forward to finding out how Rachel is able to deal with herself when sober and clean, and how she is able to find her way to Quinn again.
Thank you. As an addict. As someone dealing with a lifelong crippling mental disorder. As someone who has had to hide. Something you wrote reached out and touched me in ways illegal in many parts of the world.
Hi, so I'm just finishing up IBTTRY, and saw in the notes there's a link to all the music from the story. However, the link doesn't work anymore. Is there somewhere I could get a list (and perhaps even links) of all the songs mentioned? Thanks! :)
I did have a list at one point, but I am currently in the process of switching/upgrading computers, so it could be on one of my back up harddrives right now. I will look though. Also, I will look into finding links. In the meantime, if anybody else has a copy of the song list, please feel free to submit it. :)
Thanks for answering. Inhibitions anon here. I had high hopes for that, being a fan of YA lit but not of the usual het romances. I was hoping that even if she left fandom, she'd continue on that. Though, as much as I did like it when I first read it, I think she could have gotten rid of much of the first pages of solid exposition by just starting the story earlier and explaining things as her character met them.
I think what we got as “Chapter 1” is probably the roughest of rough drafts. When she posted original stuff on her blog, it was more to test the waters than anything. If Inhibitions is being continued and/or possibly published, chances are the first chapter is drastically different.
Personally, I will forever mourn the fact that we never got to see tmf tackle HG/Myka. She writes tortured female protagonists with a bit of an evil streak better than any other writer I've ever seen. I also mourn the fact that even if she does eventually get published, it will probably be in Australia and so I will never know of its existence.
I dunno, I think that if TMF gets published, it will find it’s way around. We just won’t know that it’s her right away. :)
Hey, do you remember the couple of chapters of an original YA thing TMF was working on? Kids at a school for the superpowered, only they don't know it because the staff's been keeping them suppressed with meds? And the main girl had a crush on another chick who was telepathic? Do you know what happened to that?
I remember this distinctly, yes. I think part of it is in the dropbox, under Inhibitions, but it’s only the first chapter. I know she had more stuff on her blog, but I don’t think anyone saved it.
I remember reading something on this blog about how tmf was a clairvoyant writer in some ways. And I was thinking about A Thousand Julys, which was a story she never finished. According to her outline, a big part of the story was going to be Quinn struggling with her songwriting and why she did it as it became more stressful(whether it was for herself or for others, etc). And Quinn eventually suffers a burnout. tmf said she quit writing because it became too stressful (1 of 2)
And that it became more about the expectation from the fandom for her than just her writing because she liked writing. It’s just an interesting parallel that I thought to bring up on the idea that tmf was clairvoyant, because it almost seems like she predicted she herself would quit through Quinn in ATJ months before she did. (2 of 2
I mean, it’s certainly an interesting coincidence, and I think it’s an intriguing idea/constant struggle that all writers face. Good writing, regardless of medium, is exhausting because it requires the writer to become an emotional conduit for a means to an end. It’s an invasive process no matter what the initial motivations are.
Perhaps TMF’s initial examination of the struggle through Quinn influenced how she perceived her writing later on. Who knows?
Thank you for still mantaining this blog and for organizing it so beautifully. I'm not longer involved with the Glee fandom, but I needed to read Assured of Certain Certainties because I'm writing a body swap story. TMF is such a wonderful writer and she was one of the multiple fanfic writers that inspired me to write. I'll miss her stories, but I'm so happy that people still have access to her works.
You are very welcome! And thank you very much for your kind words. :)
Even though TMF has been gone for over a year now, I still get new followers and messages sent to this blog all of the time. It’s amazing. It’s a pleasure to maintain an archive of her work.
media(.)tumblr(.)com/4207140355a04a6d09b9f6dc0c51a16f/tumblr_mofv6hmlXJ1ql2603o1_400(.)gif I just saw this on my dashboard and laughed so hard. It might not be with the hooves, but HEY. This is what Rachel imagination does. c:
Hi again! Sadly, neither one of those were the fics I was looking for (though I do love them both). All I can remember is that Santana comes to terms w/ her sexuality and it's not Brit who there for her but Rachel. It was well written too... huh.. oh well, guess I'll continue on my search, thank you for your help though, I really do appreciate it.
I’m sorry, Anon! I wish I would have been a better help to you. I it’s always a pain when we lose track of fics. But hopefully you’ll find it.
Did she WRITE the fic or RECOMMENDED it? Because I know she recommended Leftlanden’s “Santana Lopez Can, In Fact, Do Anything” series. The first few stories are Pezberry. However, the last huge story is Faberry. Btw, I rec this author, too.
Whoa, yeah okay, my bad. Anon did say that she recommended the story, not that she wrote it. This is my fault for muddling the message. Sorry!
Hi! Ok, so this is the best possible place I can get a likely answer, and it's super obscure, but TMF once had recommended a fic that was Pezberry, that had a similar theme to ECFC. I remember her mentioning how it was like ECFC but done in a much more condensed, yet refined version. Do you by chance know this fic? Thank you for your help, I appreciate it!
Alright, so I kind of remember what you are talking about, but I’m not sure exactly what story she was referring to. I want to say that she was talking about The Mating Game, but I only half-paid attention to Pezberry stuff back then so, that’s iffy.
Remember when it was all laughs that Tumfs predicted that Nationals Senior Year would be "Paradise by the Dashboard Light"? And if I recall correctly weren't there bits and pieces of the planned sequel to AoCC that had Quinn with red/auburn hair? What I'm saying is WITCHCRAFT. I'm kidding. But for real, clairvoyant.
Sometimes I get so sad that we won't be able to read new works by TMF :~ It's not even about fanfiction, which she was so good at, but anything written by her - from those witty posts that made me crack up and pretty much hate Glee's non-character development to Eights and Tens and other literature comments. I'd really really like to know if she's posting stuff somewhere.
I know what you mean, man. I think most of the people feel the same way. It’s like, we miss the writing of TMF, sure, but I think we miss TMF’s commentary just as much, if not more.
I’d like to think that she’s posting stuff somewhere, but we’ll never really know. That’s okay too.
Indeed, TMF did recraft AIT into TSS because she didn't feel that the original story did Faberry justice and she wanted to write what she considered to be a "realistic" version of Faberry (in contrast to say "I'll Be" or "Off the Key of Reason"). In fact, IBTTRY was a reaction piece to TSS because she needed to write something to "cheer herself up" after all the heavy crap in TSS. TMF never really hated Faberry (she was writing an AOCC Faberry sequel when she left), just the Faberry/Achele fans.
Is it true that tmf hates Faberry now and wrote these strange steps to mock the Faberry shippers?
The short answer to this question is I don’t think so.
The long answer is that I am not going to say “No” because I can’t say for sure either way, but I am going to offer up some explanation. I discovered TMF’s blog relatively late in the game, so I’m not going to pretend to be one hundred percent sure of any of this.
As you may or may not know, TSS is the renovated/evolved version of the fic And Isn’t This Exactly Where You’d Like Me (AIT). I discovered TMF’s blog when she was in the middle of this renovation. At the time, it seemed to me that TMF was more frustrated with the Faberry fandom than the idea of Faberry, and the argument could even be made that she was frustrated with fandom in general than anything.
Additionally, the argument has been made—by someone on this blog, in fact—that TSS was written solely as an exploration of Rachel’s character in preparation for TMF writing Rachel’s portion of ECFC.
I respectfully disagree with this notion for several reasons. For example, as methodical as TMF was/is, constructing and executing a 100K+ narrative like TSS for characterization practice alone seems a bit excessive. This explanation also doesn’t take into account other Faberry works like the Intersex Trilogy and IBTTRY.
With that said, even if that were true, because of the way TMF crafts fics, I sincerely doubt that she would take the time to renovate AIT into TSS just to make fun of some shippers. In fact, from what I can recall from her blog, TMF began the TSS renovation because she felt that the story as it was did not tell the story she wanted it to tell.
Of course, none of this addresses how TMF actually felt and currently feels about Faberry as a pairing, and, frankly, I don’t think I know enough about TMF to say anything for sure. I am pretty sure she preferred Pezberry to Faberry, and think most people would agree with that assessment. But I’ve always seen TMF as more of a problem-solver anyway. That is to say, she could and would take any pairing, write something for it, and make you believe in it. For her, it wasn’t about the ship or her “OTP”—it was about crafting a well-written story.
So, no, I don’t think that TMF hates Faberry now, and, no, I don’t think she wrote TSS to mock the Faberry shippers.
Again, take everything I’ve said with a grain of salt because I can’t say for sure, but I hope this answers your question. Also, sorry I took so long to respond, but this question was kind of important and scary. I had to work up to it.